Christmas

I suddenly recall something from the past and it's about Christmas. I've had gatherings over at a relative's place where my cousins will all be around and we'll gather around collecting presents from the adults. I remember I liked it a lot and the present I've received was a moon globe figurine which I get to paint in colours. Then I started to look forward to Christmas and waited for the next one to come. But it never did. Not the way I wished for. That was the last family gathering we had back in the nineties to celebrate Christmas. I wonder why the adults didn't keep up with it.

"me" time... for sulking

Everyone needs a bit of 'me' time... even if it's to sulk.

times like this, i like to just find a quiet spot to immerse myself, or rather, distract myself by reading something or to randomly surf the net so that the negative emotions can dissipate.

but this 'self-healing' moments often get disrupted by my parents with their constant queries and requests.

shut the door and they barge in to ask questions. don't feel like eating and they ask even more persistently. shut the door a little harder and they think the tantrum is directed at them (when it's not).

the deeper i hide, the deeper they pry.
the more i avoid contact to prevent my temper from seeping, the more invasion i face.

times like this... it makes me wish for my own house minus the parents.

on the bright side, times like this makes me appreciate my husband who is both a mediator between me and my folks while telling me he understands.

it ain't so bad after all.

sense of protectiveness

Maria says:

monday my colleague's daughter (1 yr old) fell sick and was rushed to kkh but now ok.

it kinda got me thinking

if i had my own kid

and i'm the kind that worry loads.

i think i'll hv panic attacks every other day

-__-

maciam someone cut my flesh

i think i will become godzilla mom

Dil says:

i wonder if you'll be the ultra-protective of the kid

*ultra-protective parent

Maria says:

prob not the senseless kind. but def protective as in like if some kid bully my kid

I'LL BEAT THEM UP

Dil says:

i can so forsee that happening~

i dont know eh.. but i guess kids these days do fall sick easier

Maria says:

ya so u dun come n poke my cow jr. i'll beat u up

Dil says:

"come with uncle susu k? uncle will buy you stufffffff" HAHAHAH

kidding

i'll probably be the play-time uncle

XD

Maria says:

i will show pictures n tell him 'this one, is uncle mt fuji susu. u must ask hiim buy things for u'

XD

Dil says:
ISH!

栽培孩子

看了這篇文章,很感動也學到了點新觀點

栽培他的天賦，也栽培他的視野 (click)

トイレの神様

トイレの神様 means "God of Toilet" if you do a literal translation from the Japanese text. :D

I came across this song by chance and thought the title sounded cute so I've decided to click on it and have a listen. Hiding behind ths seemigly cute and random title lies a 10 minute journey through a woman's memories of her grandmother.

very meaningful and touching song.

歌手：植村花菜

作詞：植村花菜・山田ひろし

作曲：植村花菜

小３の頃からなぜだが
小三開始,不知為甚麼
おばあちゃんと暮らしてた
我與奶奶住在一起
実家の隣だったけど
雖然就在本家的隔壁
おばあちゃんと暮らしてた
但我與奶奶住在一起

毎日お手伝いをして
每天幫忙奶奶做家事
五目並べもした
也會一起下五子棋
でも、トイレ掃除だけ苦手な私に
但是對於十分討厭打掃廁所的我
おばあちゃんがこう言った
奶奶這麼說到

トイレには
廁所裡面
それはそれはキレイな女神様がいるんやで
可是住著一位很漂亮的女神哦
だから毎日キレイにしたら
所以假如每天打掃的很乾淨的話
女神様みたいにべっぴんさんになれるやで
就可以變成像女神一樣漂亮的女生哦

その日から私は
自從那一天起
トイレをピカピカにし始めた
我開始將廁所打掃的乾乾淨淨
べっぴんさんに絶対なりたくて
因為一定要成為美女
毎日磨いてた
每天都刷的乾乾淨淨

買い物に出かけて時には
出門買東西的時候
二人で鴨なんば食べた
倆人一起吃了鴨肉湯麵
新喜劇録画し損ねたおばあちゃんを
泣いて責めたりました
我也曾經一邊哭著, 對著沒有幫我錄到新喜劇節目的奶奶發脾氣

トイレには
廁所裡面
それはそれはキレイな女神様がいるんやで
可是住著一位很漂亮的女神哦
だから毎日キレイにしたら
所以假如每天打掃的很乾淨的話
女神様みたいにべっぴｎさんになれるやで
就可以變成像女神一樣漂亮的女生哦

少し大人になった私は
稍微長大後的我
おばあちゃんとぶつかった
和奶奶起了爭執
家族ともうまくやれなくて
和家人也處的不好
居場所がなくなった
失去了容身之處

休みの日も家に帰らず
即使放假也不回家
彼氏と遊んだりした
與男朋友到處玩
五目並べも鴨なんばも
五子棋也好鴨肉湯麵也罷
二人の間から消えてった
倆人共處的時光已逝

どうしてだろう？
到底為甚麼呢?
人は人を傷付け、大切なものをなくしてく
人與人之間要互相傷害, 然後舍去重要的東西
いつも味方をしてくれたおばあちゃん残して
我留下總是支持著我的奶奶
ひとりきり
一個人
家　離れた
離家而去

上京して２年が過ぎて
到東京已經過了兩年
おばあちゃんが入院した
奶奶她住院了
痩せて細くなってしまった
おばあちゃんに会いに行った
於是我去探望變得瘦弱的奶奶

「おばあちゃん、ただいまー！」ってわざと
昔みたいに言ってみたけど
刻意像以往一般的說“奶奶， 我回來了!”
ちょっと話しただけだったのに
但是才沒說到幾句話
「もう帰りー。」って
病室を出された
就被一句“該回去了。”趕出病房

次の日の朝
隔日的早上
おばあちゃんは静かに眠りについた
奶奶她靜靜的離去
まるで　まるで
就好像 就好像
私がくるの待っていてくれたように
在等著我的到來一般

ちゃんと育ててくれたのに
雖然辛苦的拉拔我長大
恩返しもしてないのに
我卻還沒報答恩情
いい孫じゃなかったのに
明明是個不聽話的孫女
こんな私を
待っててくれたんやね
卻還是一直等著這樣的我呀

トイレには
廁所裡面
それはそれはキレイな女神様がいるんやで
可是住著一位很漂亮的女神哦
おばあちゃんがくれた言葉は
奶奶給我的一句話
今日の私をべっぴんさんにしてくれるかな
現在的我是否能成為美女呢

トイレには
廁所裡面
それはそれはキレイな女神様がいるんやで
可是住著一位很漂亮的女神哦
だから毎日キレイしたら
所以假如每天打掃的很乾淨的話
女神様みたいにべっぴんさんになれるやで
就可以變成像女神一樣漂亮的女生哦

気立ての良いお嫁さんになるのが夢だった私を
曾盡夢想可以成為一個溫柔女孩的我
今日もせっせと
今天也要很認真地
トイレをピカピカにする
將廁所打掃的乾乾淨淨

おばあちゃん
奶奶
おばあちゃん
奶奶
ありがとう
謝謝你

おばあちゃん
奶奶
ホンマに
真的

ありがとう
謝謝你

temper check

一直這樣反反覆覆的鬧情緒...你不累我也累了。

parents-woes

sometimes.... my parents drive me insane.
sometimes.... it's infuriating to witness quarrels where you CLEARLY know it could be resolved if only they could've chosen to look at the solution TOGETHER and not dwelve at the problem. seriously, it takes two hands to clap. it irritates the crap out of me to know how an issue could be easily solved IF ONLY both parties were willing to be a bit more considerate/sensitive towards each other, think not just for themselves but also also to consider the issue by putting themselves into the shoes of their partner. alot could be understood and solved amicably. but more than often, many choose not to do so and it irritates the hell out of me cos i can't stand such things. to me, it's plain stupid. it's frustrating cos i know what could've been done to solve the prob but thing is, I'M NOT THE ONE INVOLVED! it's these.. 'other people'. and seeing how they are not doing things right when they could and somehow cleverly choose to plunge deeper and deeper into the black hole while digging each others' hearts out.. geez.

antique rings

mom suddenly 'handover' a bunch of her antique jewelleries to me.

O_O"

retro sial.

Went to Golden Mile to eat steamboat last week. heh.
it's my mom's birthday!!

we went to thien kee steamboat, a place where my folks would always bring me to when i was a kid either by ourselves or with their friends. this place is full of childhood memories and i'm not sure if it's bcos i loved the food when i was a kid that i still think it taste damn nice now hahah. very nostalgic. i'm both surprised and happy to find out that it's still so damn crowded at the shop although everywhere else in the building is pretty quiet.

brought my dad there cos only he know how to prepare the sauce that always make the soup so nice hehehehe i told gu to learn from my daddy the 'secret recipe'.



the first comment i made after drinking the soup was, "TASTE LIKE WHEN I KID LEH!!!".

the i became super excited and gorged myself. hahaha

dong cheng dong cheng!!
CNY!
POCKETS-FUL OF ANG POW TIME!

BUT! For me, it's also the time for questions like "when r u getting married" / "when can i stop giving u ang pow?"

*slap head*

i went o'er to ching's hse to visit first during the earlier half of the afternoon before heading off to my uncle's house for visiting.

it's a once a year thing and all my relatives (father's side) will just gather to my uncle's hse.
it's like a one stop station basically.

we arrived a little later than we normally do (tho we still ended up being the earlier few to arrive) tsk tsk tsk...

we all probably missed out one or two family members who came earlier in the day.
but oh well, so did everyone else haha


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no little ones running around.
unlike chingling's hse where we were being greeted by this huge grp of kids blocking the doorway and chattering non stop. i nearly went crazy. it's been awhile since there's been a child in the family. i'm somewhere around the middle if you were to go and count in order of age amongst me and my cousins. the oldest one has probably just hit his thirties not so long ago and just got married last year or so.

babies not in sight YET but i suppose... soon?

this year wilson's a smart boboy. he borrowed his brother's car out to drive us in. hehehe save me the trouble from sitting on his bike when it's a day where i deliberately dress up a little more and pinned my hair up. no complaints from the folks about his driving skills so i guess it's a PASS! HEHEHEHE

my aunt didn't recognize me. -__-"
must be normally i always dress too shabbily.

check out how fat bryan's pocket is (with red packets).
wilson was commenting on how it looked like a second 'wallet'.



actually this year not bad lah. my mom give face and came with us hehehehe.
as usual my uncle bugged me with questions about my digicam. buey tahan.
not pro wanna act pro. wah lau.

as soon as we can 'siam' the place,
gu drove to send my parents and i back home first. he dropped me off at chingling's house where i hung out with ching and HL first and he stayed home for a couple hours to spend some time with his family first. later in the evening he joined us at east coast park's mcdonald.

talked cock as usual hahaha since all our brain cells are pretty much fried and cant think too intelligently so we talked crapped about work shite, office politics, and stupid ppl.

a cute cat came and sat near me but it was hiding behind the plants. took some pictures of it but forgot to post it up. she's pretty ppl shy.

by the time we're leaving the 'amusement park'... well not exactly a park as per se but yea there were these rides that stopped operations already but the gang decided to randomly pose in it anyway.


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Ching loves doraemon.

Hello, 2008

又迈入了新的一年。
感触应该很多吧？
只觉得近年来，时间都过得非常快。
2007...我都干了些什么？
回顾一下吧？

注：以下《回顾篇》是不照顺序的。原谅我吧？我记忆不好啦！

想法/感情/友谊

性格上，算得上是有变得比较积极，“友善”，也因此结交到了些新的朋友。
虽然说友谊上，有得也有失，“失”是什么，我不想多说。不过“得”到的，
一辈子难忘。可以说是和好几位朋友塑造了个更坚固的感情。
在这一年里，我陪伴了些朋友度过一些感情上比较艰难的日子。
不过好在不开心的日子也过了。看到朋友的坚强，我不禁替她们感到骄傲。

终于有了住在我家附近的朋友，能偶尔串串门子，喝杯奶茶什么的。
看似简单却可欲不可求。

IMAN去了英国就读。

兴趣/嗜好

找到了好几个让我日子过得很愉快的网页。
Sana 的漫画网志
湾湾's 漫画网志
四小折's 绘本日志
Cute Overload

2007里，我大概把前半辈子没看过的动画都看完了吧?
好！我会多多加油的！

定了很多套漫画！超感动的！
《四叶妹妹》
《白鬼夜行抄》
《玻璃假面》

我终于收集完了Terry Goodkind 的 小说！

做了很多手工艺品。
技术上有进步。会再接再厉。

买了井上雄彦的《流浪汉》绘画册，超兴奋的！！！

我终于买了支 graphic pen！

买了RYUK 和 L 的 模型！

成就/新体验

成功的报读大学。

我终于...踏出了新加坡国际！到了吉隆坡！
活到24岁才第一次出国，有够可怜的。
不过是跟我家阿牛和好友一起出国，所以很好玩的说。

亲自体验到跟PRODUCER等级的工作人员在当地拍摄的感觉。
感触很多。算是初体验所以很多事情，还反应不过来。
不过能够去也是件好事。能学到新事物。

换了新发型。

终于，事隔8年后，我鼓起了勇气自己去了牙医洗牙。
我看我因该是疯了。

成功的举办了BBQ 2007！！
虽然当中出了点小篓子，
有些人也没能来到，
不过大致上还是很顺利。

食物

2007我开始吃韩国餐也迷上了他们料理。
我的最爱是 yuh gae jang 和 年糕!!!!!
说到韩国，今年也眯上了很多韩剧。
李准基！！哦，超爱他的。

迷上了BOTAK JONES 的西餐！

吃了生平最好吃的CHAWANMUSHI （KELVIN哥做的！）和 COROQUETTE (北海道食展）。

动物/宠物

认识了我家楼下的肥猫和它的同等猫类。
可惜仁慈的那两只小猫被抓走了。

黑仔和白仔都过世了。

无意间捡到了MUSHROOM。
可惜我妈妈怕猫，所以自己不能领养。
不过后来还是替它找了了位好饲主。
现在它可是位妈咪了。

额外

第一次抽奖有我的份！中了部数码相机！

参加了两位堂姐/哥的婚礼。

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总的来说，
我觉得我度过了个很丰富的一年。
希望2008也能够多姿多彩。
朋友和家人都能够身体健康。

最后当然不忘祝福一下，
大家新年快乐！

Wedding Bells in the Family

attended my cousin's wedding dinner over the weekend.
it was held in Rasa Sentosa Resort on a saturday evening.

it's not that ez to get there considering the amount of traffic just upon approaching sentosa and when we sorta entered. dad's friend came to pick us up to fetch us there. nice uncle.

i wasn't aware of a hawaiian theme.
i wasn't aware of it being an open concept dinner.
i wasn't aware that food will be served buffet/catering style.

none of us were... actually.

the wise ones then started remarking on the what if(s).

what if it rains?
what if the ants fall from the tree and into the food.
what if ants crawled up our chairs?

if it rains... we kids will grab the plate of beef and head for shelter. bryan will grab the utensils and i'll have kris grab the plates.

best!

anyway, weather turned out quite cooling that night.
being unaware of the theme, i kinda over-dressed.


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the beef served was pretty tough to cut through with the knife given to us.
"BRING ME A REAL KNIFE PLS!", cried Bryan.
quite funny.

three of us were trying our might to cut the beef slices into pieces.

the table nearly collapsed i think. my aunt kept asking us to not shake the table.

my cousin is really slim.
now i'm really determined to make sure i maintain a gd figure when my big day comes.

learnt a few 'lessons' after having attended my cousin's wedding.
lotsa things to take note of.
what to do and what NOT to do.

i once considered having it by the riverside.
at least not having our chairs on the grass with ants crawling up. but now i've learnt to take the weather into consideration. music selection must make sense. the photographer we engage is very impt. i've seen quite a few portfolios before, friend's wedding pics and all. now i know what i DONT want, i have to make extra effort to find a photographer whom i like in terms of photography style. i realise i'm pretty particular about this point. nxt impt point is the speech we give during the dinner. i'll make sure i plan a script beforehand. saying the wrong things... have dire consequences.

but of course, saying all these now is still a tad too early.

all i can say is that i'm very very particular about the overall aesthetics and atmosphere. things must match and make sense.

was jokin with my cousin when being asked when's my turn next.

"2 years from now"
"wah planned already ah!?"
"no lah must consider age limit ma. two years better faster get married if not expire liao then u all won't have wedding dinner in restaurants but in the kopitiam."
"LOL"

did i ever tell you i enjoy being with my relatives esp when there's a whole grp of them?

grabbed my cousins for a grp pic.
not all my cousins are in there but haha.. will do.


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the wedding gifts were candles.
it runs in the blood i tell you.
esp when suddenly all my auntie and uncles (and my dad) went around taking other ppls' candles (since they left already). my dad even joked and say we can sell them for $1 each. he tried to con my cousin.

"Uncle sell you 1 for $1 lah!!"
(cousin runs away)
"OK lah!! sell you cheap! 50 cents lah!"


my mom somehow managed to link all the paper bags together for dad to carry with just a finger.

in the end he had to carry all the candles home.
one mad daddy i have.
i asked him why take so many back home?
he say it's for me.

wah lau.